IS THE HORSE RUNNING AWAY WITH YOU?
By the time you finish reading this article, you'll be convinced, along with me, Margaret Paul, and your Inner Wisdom, that almost anything can be an addiction. If you've taken up something that seems to have taken control of your life, and now feel worse than you did before, it's probably an addiction.
Addiction -- whether it's to substances, feelings, or process - - is doing something in order to avoid something else. The cure will be worse than the symptom.
Learning to manage feelings is what EQ is all about.
EQ starts with self-awareness. If you've attacked something in order to deal with something else, and you feel like you're the one under attack and the "cure" is worse than the "symptom," it's probably an addiction.
This is like my client Lynn, who felt bad when her boyfriend rejected her, so she decided to lose 20 lbs. and get in shape. A great idea except she did it in such a way she ended up feeling worse about herself than before.
She thought if she "got in shape," he would come back to her, i.e., she could control his feelings and treatment of her.
She started working out compulsively, neglecting her kids and also her health. She got dehydrated too often, didn't eat right, and didn't take supplements. She aggravated an old knee injury but kept stressing it; dropped a weight that was too heavy on her toe and broke it (but kept on with the treadmill!); and quit her college course halfway through in order to make even more time for this self-abuse.
Then she berated herself for not being able to "handle" working out ... and felt bad about that too.
When, after losing 20 lbs., he still didn't come back to her, she was sure there was something else needing "fixing."
It's kind of an endless round of torment.
It's like the person who takes up Yoga in order to relax, and then competes to become "the best Yoga person on earth" and ends up more tense than ever.
Today's article gives a good introductory summary. Enjoy! And if you see yourself in some of the things written, and acknowledge you need and want to change this, call for some EQ coaching. In coaching, we start where you are, and go forward, with a positive attitude.
YOU RIDE THE HORSE, DON'T LET IT RIDE YOU
"Recovery from Addiction," by Margaret Paul, Ph.D.
Just about everyone in our society is addicted to something. Addictions can take many forms:
SUBSTANCE ADDICTIONS: addiction to alcohol, recreational drugs, prescription meds, caffeine, nicotine, food, sugar, carbohydrates.
PROCESS ADDICTIONS: addiction to love, connection, caretaking, anger, resistance, withdrawal, and to activities such as:
• Making money
• Spending money
• Sex, masturbation, pornography
• Accumulating things
• Obsessive thinking (ruminating)
• Talking a lot
• Talking on the telephone a lot
• Gathering information (if only I know enough I will feel
• Cutting themselves
• Glamour, beautifying
[I would add to this list, "the Internet".]
We can use anything as a way of avoiding feelings and avoiding taking responsibility for our painful feelings. Whenever we engage in an activity with the intention of avoiding our feelings, we are using that activity as an addiction. We can watch TV to relax and enjoy our favorite programs, or we can watch TV to avoid our feelings. We can meditate to connect with Spirit and center ourselves, or we can meditate to bliss out and avoid responsibility for our feelings. We can read to enjoy and learn, or read to escape. Anything can be an addiction, depending upon our intention.
For example, when your intention is to take loving care of yourself and your work is something you really enjoy, then working is not being used as an addiction. But when the intent is to get approval or avoid painful feelings, then work is being used as an addiction. The same is true for most of the above behaviors – they can be addictions or not, depending upon your intent.
All of us have a wounded part of us – our wounded self or ego self – that has been programmed with many false beliefs through our growing-up years. There are four common false beliefs that underlie most addictions:
1. I can’t handle my pain.
2. I am unworthy and unlovable.
3. Others are my source of love.
4. I can have control over how others feel about me and treat me.
I CAN’T HANDLE MY PAIN
While this was true when we were small, it is not true as adults, yet many people operate as if it is true. When you believe that you are incapable of handling pain – especially the deep pain of loneliness and helplessness – then you will find many addictive ways to avoid feeling your pain. All of us are capable of learning how to manage painful feelings in ways that support our highest good, rather behaving in addictive ways that hurt us.
Anything you do to avoid taking responsibility for managing your pain is self-abandonment, which creates even more pain - the deep pain of aloneness. Whether you abandon yourself to substances, processes or people, your inner child – which is
your feeling self - will feel abandoned by your choice to avoid responsibility for your feelings. If you had an actual child who was in pain, and you got drunk instead of being there for that child, he or she would be in even more pain from the abandonment. It is exactly the same on the inner level. Addictive behavior is an abandonment of self and causes the very pain you are trying to avoid.
I AM UNWORTHY AND UNLOVABLE
When you did not receive the love you needed as a small child, you might have concluded that the reason you were not loved was because you were bad, flawed, defective, unworthy, unlovable, or unimportant. This is core shame – the false belief that there is essentially something wrong with you. When you adopt this
belief, you become cut off from your Source, believing that you are unworthy of being loved by a Higher Power.
OTHERS ARE MY SOURCE OF LOVE
You will become addicted to attention, approval, love, sex, or connection when you believe that another person needs to be your dependable source of love. In this case, you will be abandoning your inner child to another person, which causes as
much pain as abandoning yourself to a substance. Until you learn to tap into a Higher Power as your source of love, you will continue to be addicted to people as your source of love.
I CAN HAVE CONTROL OVER HOW OTHERS FEEL ABOUT ME AND TREAT ME
If you believe you can control others’ feelings and behavior, you will become addicted to various ways of trying to control, such as anger, judgment, blame, or people-pleasing. When you believe you can’t handle your pain and that others are your
source of love, then you want control over getting that love. This is the cause of the codependency that underlies most relationship problems.
There is a way to heal from addictions. The rest of the articles in this series will address the process of recovery from addictions.
About The Author: Margaret Paul, Ph.D., best-selling author of eight books, including "Do I Have To Give Up Me To Be Loved By You” and co-creator of the powerful Inner Bonding healing process. Learn Inner Bonding now! Visit her web site for a FREE Inner Bonding course: http://www.innerbonding.com or email her at mailto:firstname.lastname@example.org. Phone Sessions.